From winning Miss Chinese Vancouver 2016, to not making it into the Top 10 in Miss Chinese International, my life has been a huge rollercoaster the last few months.
Being at both ends of the spectrum in the pageant world made me realize that at the end of the day, I am not defined by a pageant title.
Winning the Vancouver pageant was one of my goals from 2 years ago and I worked extremely hard to achieve this goal. I am so thankful for all the support I received during this pageant.
Two weeks later, I was on a plane to Hong Kong to take part in the Miss Chinese International Pageant. Being in an international pageant was such a unique experience as I competed with pageant queens from different cities from all over the world.
The whole two weeks in Hong Kong and Malaysia were packed with activities such as promo filming, photoshoots, press conferences, travelling, and rehearsals. The amount of work that went into producing this pageant was incredible.
Everyone survived on 3-4 hours of sleep each night, which demonstrated to all of us pageant girls that the entertainment industry is not all glamour like people think. Despite our lack of sleep, we still had so much fun during this entire journey.
As the heaviest contestant, I dealt with a lot of body shaming from the Hong Kong media. I realized people did not care that I could speak 4 languages, graduated from university with distinction, and was a talented performer and dancer. To them, the number on the scale was all that mattered.
The HK media even grouped the girls who were “more gifted” in the chest area and asked us in an interview if we drank papaya milk. That’s because in Chinese culture papaya milk is considered a natural food that can help enlarge a woman’s breasts…
This kind of experience really opened my eyes to the fact that being in the spotlight means you have to be prepared to deal with negative attention. For me, I’ve always been insecure about my body, but during this pageant I realized something. My weight was only gossip for people to talk about, not a definition of who I was.
The international pageant I took part in taught me a lot. I made new friends, learned a lot about the entertainment industry, and learned one thing that will stick with me for the rest of my life: you can’t always control life’s circumstances, but you can control how you deal with things.
There’s always so much to be thankful for and that’s how I feel for having this opportunity. After all, this might just be a blessing in disguise…